Saturday, September 4, 2010
im still alive but im barely breathing,
just prayed to a god that i dont believe in.
while i got time, you got freedom
cause when a heart breaks no it dont breakeven...
what am i suppose to do when the best part of me was always you.
what am i suppose to say when im choked up and you are ok.
im falling to pieces...
for all the time that we went through, its amazing how you have finally lost/ gave up hope on us. 2.5yrs of sweetness (well so i was to me) was enough to keep me going. knowing i would find no one better out there, i never wanted to let you go. yes in those tough times and those stupid mistakes it seemed like i wanted out. but never once did i ever seriously consider it.
but you,
you have given up. and im walking away.
if im your sunshine,
if im there to make you smile,
if im there to make you laugh,
if im there when times are tough,
if im there when you feeling scared,
if im there when you are feeling alone,
if im there when you are lost,
if i look after you like no one else can,
if i am the best and there is no one else better out there for you,
if i am everything you love in a guy....
then whats there to think about? whats there to know? after 2.5yrs you have lost sight of what your are fighting for. if this was a 6month relationship, i'd understand. but its not. its a 2.5yrs relationship. how can you say you dont know if you would simply be getting used to me? does that mean that all this while, you were simply just getting used to me? that this 2.5yrs relationship was a lie? that you were not exactly happy or wake up happy? that you simply just adapted for the sake of it?
cause it wasnt like that for me. it was the happiest times in my life. and thru the mistakes/fights/ troubles we faced.. all the happy moments were always worth fighting for. its only been less than 2months. whats that compared to my 30 months. or compared to a lifetime of more.
well whats done is done. its all over and all i can have now is memories of that magical relationship we had.
thank you.
always love you.
ryan
Angelus blogged at 2:51 PM
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