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Op finish...

pw finish....

school for the year officially finish...

my ego finish....

haha yea. oh well will blog more later. right now just want to say that i dont know why im this pissed.

oh well

Angelus blogged at 10:13 PM

woke up pretty early this morning since i went to bed early the previous night. lost the mood to talk then. sigh. so yeah woke up in the morning n made my way down to training.

i remembered rishi askingme if wanted a dry run but didnt confirm n yahui hadnt replied any of my earliers messages so i figured there wasnt any. luckinly i messaged them n rishi told me just before i entered trainin that there was. though i dont know how since i didnt bring my laptop along with me. yeah.

played hockey till my legs were so tired that they didnt want to move after training. called yahui to see what bus goes there n since she hadnt left yt, decided to meet her n go. while waiting for her, saw a boy meet with an accident. not that serious but scary nonetheless. so glad it wasnt you though.

then after that we made our way to p.s. where we rehearsed the skit n played bridge. then me, yahui n joanne took a train to bishan where i followed joanne shopping for stuff till yahui finished her dental. since i wasnt in the mood of returning, ( no prize for guessing why ) i accompanied yahui in the library while she borrowed books. the two books that i think she borrwed was.... hmm dont recall now actually. though i rmb one of them is called "pop princess". lol

then went to makan some light snack b4 heading back home. she kept fussin over why i followed her. sigh. next time i decide to be nice and accompany someone, remind me to ask if its ok. hahahaha.

i went for a run b4 returnin home. a light one since i was damn tired alr. reached home n had dinner.

been feeling so tired lately over things around me. thanking god that there is still some form of refuge to look to in my friends. though sometimes scared that even that may disappear. but thats just being paranoid. didnt think it was fair that u would want to know why/when im annoyed when u wouldnt want to explain why u were, if i have to keep bugging you for it.. it jst makes me look retardedly desperate for a friend.

am i? nah i keep telling myself that its worth fightin for the friends that you cherish just hope the fight is mutual.

WAH PW TMR... im so thankful when its over man. can take a breather from school officially. n since i didnt make it to facilling, i guess hockey is the only reason to return to school. should i apply for 02? abt thick ckin ppl may say after failing the first round. lol.

just a thought. any suggestion on where you would like to go for a formal dinner? probably be on a sat after mass or smth. okie?haha

Angelus blogged at 11:05 PM

ryan says: you got to hold strong through this times. cause leaning on some people are just causing you to loose them.


haha sigh.

oh well today was pretty boring. tmr got malay. in the words of hygin, may we do well to forget the language. (: yeah i probably forget all those peribahasa n poppadum n shit.

oh my gosh.. i just thought of something damn mean. (random, but yeah) nvm after thinkin abt it i have chosen not to blog abt it.

haha. yupp two weeks gone n survived with many battle scars. wonder what next week holds. abandonement definitely. but to which is unknown.

yeah. i refer to someone in particular here. wonder if she knows its her. lol. but i wanna go for a formal dinner together but not sure if you would like to.just to end the year off nice n sweet. hmm. i know you would read this so yeah im askin you here. :P anyways if you want to... let me know n then we see when k? just a hint. lol.

Angelus blogged at 9:27 PM

im such a fool. haha.

it doesnt matter what i feel alright so just back off. i lost too many times already.

Angelus blogged at 2:04 AM

today was alright i suppose. got the shoking response from the class that my hair looked like fuck. what else is new.. i know it looks disgusting la, with people rubbin it in. sigh. not like i wanted it anyways.

yeah spent the day playing soccer n finally ended with ljs again. probably the most mundane days ever. yeah i know. its been a rough two weeks n its not seeming brighter. top it most is when u know who really is there for you when you are at an all time low n who isnt. am i being foolish ? fendin for myself these past two weeks have been a real pain n its just all the more tiring. just seems like im edgin towards where i used to be. i gotte accept it? maybe.... i mean its a hassle to ask to stay when it clearly shows otherwise. who am i to demand that of a person. what ive given shouldnt be compensated with similar treatment. hahaha.. yeah a fool indeed,.

and of all times to arrive at my house, today. im scared cause i just am. i dont wanna forgive cause ill regret not doin so earlier.sigh. i just dont want u here in my house. for once cant i just stay angry n not give a shit. so much shit, just gotta bottle. thats what i do best right? learnt it the hard way on why it is neccessarry.

on a lighter note, i lost two kg today.

Angelus blogged at 9:57 PM

yo mah niggas, this post will be doin a lettle bit of advertising yes?


TO ALL T30 Rockers Out there,

Chalet is on the 21st to 23rd November.
Cost per person as of now is 40bucks. wanna know why ? ?

this be the rough plan for the chalet:

first afternoon we slack and talk rubbish in the chalet till night. maybe go swim or play pool there.
First Night we be having a steamboat dinner IN the chalet along with cocktails n music so basically we be chilling out the whole night yes ?
Cards/Movies/PS3 n other random games we bring will be played there.

Second morning we wake up and get ready to go to Wild Wild Wet or Escape dependin on the mood. we spend the whold day there playing and by evening we all head to the beach where we will be BbQ-ing. Whilst having a bbq, we shall bike n skate n hang out in the beach. We shall eat to our hearts content and probably drink a bit of alcohol. We probably find something to do the whole night so there is no problem with activities but for those who want to sleep, there would be a tent pitched there.

the next morning we probably all clear up and head for breakfast. so why 40? cause it covers the lodging, ALL the food, drinks ( both alcoholic n not ) , Wild wild Wet. its pretty worth it if you ask me.

So to all T30 rockers n the embassadors to the class.. Please please please try and make it for this year end celebration to enjoy the memories of our one year spent. So please confirm with me whether you are going and pass me or yahui the money so that we can get this thing going.

...............................end of advertisement....................

ok so yeah.. PW is a bitch these days cause im braindead into doing it. I managed to promote and have been praying that things pick up for germaine n chang yong n rosheni. God has his plans for them so trust him.

yupp.. im sorry about ytd. oh well i slothed the whole of today while i was actually at home n now i really should be doing some work.
Pw-- sigh
Malay-- GG

ever wondered what happens when you try to burn yoko yoko?

oh 16more days till she you come back. woot.

Angelus blogged at 5:53 PM

hey peeps today be another random day in school. was late for school today cause i was stuck in a jamming session. too bad it ran out of butter yes?



then i spent the first period cleaning the board with iqbal n thought the first period was bio so set in an empty lecture theatre for an hour. second period was then bio lecture and was paying attention while talkin to andre and iqbal abt rubbish. then had chem tutorial whih i was pretty much stoned cause my mind was still filled with last nights convo with my captain.



went for break to celebrate rishi's bday. happy birthday dude. n after break we had some N.S. talk shit which was pretty interesting. after that had the anchor test which was a waste of my time.



yupp then went home with iqbal n talk a whole lot of shit.



yeah im really feelin down these few days. sigh if only... ah fuck it. shall make that choice soon. now gotta plan for OP as well as chalet as well as Alevel mt. (note the order of importance)

to all those that promoted, well done. to those that didnt, im prayin hard for you.

this next part should be ignored for those that dont really want to give a shit.
im feeling like a fool and this mask that im putting up to hold everything up is wearing out. im tired n need to lean. it just doesnt feel the same anymore. alone n left standin by myself holding the fort. bleah. i miss sji where i had eugene n hygin in school. now.. once had in class has been now lost. sigh. screwed up choices ive got to make.

i dont want to become bitter. i shouldnt be. but.... i envy all of you ppl who have people around you n dont cherish them.

on a different note: i hate being indian.i hate myself for it.

Angelus blogged at 8:42 PM

i promoted. finally heaves a sigh of relief. yet... im not happy. im not happy cause a lot of ppl arent. sigh.

shall blog more on this another time. gettin tired n high.

argh! so hard to forget n ignore. ):

Angelus blogged at 11:38 PM

i passed bio.. woot

Angelus blogged at 11:43 PM

fighting for a friendship should be a dual force. it will not succeed if its just the one, cause if its just the one then the friendship is not valued and is heading to oblivion.

dont fool yourself to think its valued. society blinds the people

Angelus blogged at 10:59 PM

been a while since last blogged eh?

nah that aint true. well friday was open house and boy was it one tiring one. according to yahui about 650+ people came to have a look. not bad.
well it rained n playing in the rain was quite apt cause its been a while since i did anything in the rain.

after the open house, i bumped into joe n chang yong from odac and we all decided to take 966 back home. talked nonsense as always n bumped into yahui just before boarding the bus. yupp reached home pretty exhausted.

yesterday i woke up n marked a few of my brothers maths papers. then after that i headed to hygin's place but not before topin by at eugene to collect his charger from his dad. AweSome catchin up with you guys though it was only a short while. ): but nonetheless fun. played some shit scary game. heart was racing la i swear.


then i took a cab down to novena for pw. finally got the oral presentation started la. sounds promising. didnt go for novena cause pw dragged on longer n i felt guilty leaving them behind. it wouldnt be fair to the rest if i slack off. oh well. after that we went walkin around shops n had dinner at kfc. took a train back but not before being scolded by yahui abt not being economical.


went back home. and watched england game.Woot to england. 3-0mah niggas.

the results for promos have been depressing. really it has. its not just me
but the whole class. all talkin abt not promoting and all that shit. so far got back my supposedly only good subject and that is maths. i know im gonna die for the rest.

chalet preprations have been very the err.. annoying cause im some noob and nobody knows what to do. haha. oh well..

ill never let our friendship die cause you have been so close to my heart. friends with history not that are history. show me you value us just as much as i do.

Angelus blogged at 2:09 PM

who ever thought that today would turn out to be the most retarded day ever.

firtly i woke up today n came to school as per normal. played cards in the morning b4 assembly. then had SD lesson which i had to do some survey which was so darn useless. the questions there were damn funny. hahaha.

then for the first time GP turned out to be fun as we did some funny word game and also played taboo. laughed a lot with iqbals retarded answers.

then i went for break where sick jokes were being cracked as jia yii was being some noob in so many stuff. n then hmm ice ended up flying into my mouth after rosheni shot it. how apt ah? yes i know you will read this n laugh your ass off. n what kind of question was how did it taste?! like wth? its ice la. haha

then after taht i had malay where i actually subpassed malay. woot! cikgu say i am risky in my marks but im hopin id do well enough la. sigh. but al in all i was as usual disruptin the class for them. after malay i went back n found the class pretty empty except for those who were going to minds cafe.

after deliberation i decided to follow them cause a certain someone disappeared from scene. not like its not been like that these past two days. sigh. but oh well. took the bus there. in the middle of the bus, milu calls me to ask me whether to get off. how retarded is that??? hahah.

yeah.. finally arriving at MindsCafe we had fries and started off playing UNO stacko. yes the firt roun the thing got knocked down by germaine who didnt even touch the thing. lmao man.
n then.... the second one became interesting. haha after that we continued to play taboo which was once again damn funny.
Germaine : " rachel needs a ..... "
Lindy and Milu response in sync : " a boob job!"
wth.... hahaha

after spendin quite some time.i followed lindy, milu, rachel and rosheni to vivo to grab stuff from candy empire. awesome! then lindy had to go and this was where the madness began. i went shoppin with the rachel milu and rosheni. have you ever tried? its pure craziness. i mean it in the most interesting way. the amount of retarded stuff that happened. never knew that IMH had that many runaway patients.

oh yeah i promised i would quote this phrase by rachel, though some may not get it. "ok lorh, dunno lah, anything lorh..."

haha eventually went back at like freakin 8 in the night.
i think i was dragged and walked more than i run for training. its amazing this ppl hate P.E.

sigh. what you have been doing has just sucked.

Angelus blogged at 9:42 PM

this feeling sucks.

heartbroken but cant show it. wish you would talk things out with me without just stating where you stand. its hurting so bad to know why you have given up. making me hate myself even more for who i am.

a strong voice inside is telling me to hold on. i dont know why? hoping against all odds you decide to step out of your comfort zone. stepping out to give this a shot. the voice in me is strong yet i dont know why. silent whisper to not loose faith. wish id wake up and know that its a different world we live in. wish id wake up and know you would follow that small feelings. ill hang on till all is lost.

wish it were so. GOKW im feeling right now.

btw.. sarah you are a real flirtatious bitch who is screwin up my friend's life. just thought id say it here since you wouldnt really read this anyways.

Angelus blogged at 9:19 PM

Angelus blogged at 2:47 PM

i am definitely missing something here. i cant see it. seriously.

Angelus blogged at 11:28 AM

hello people that read my blog. im not gonna bother to change the colouring for this post cause i just wanna type random stuff. and its just banyak leychey.

well today i woke up at around 12. haha. the sweet enjoyment of sleeping in. woke up and felt that satisfaction of knowin that i have no exams. well at least for now that is. got the main house com fixed today. after prolonging it for so damn long.

then had brunch while was on the com playing some random spiderman game. well i had the whole day to kill so i sorted out my files in my laptop and then went for a run.

by the time it was 4pm and i was talking to eugene and hygin via sms before knocking out on the sofa n slept till 7. was having a nice dream... close to the end n unfortunately my phone rang and shit.. i never found out the ending. haha.


pw is gonna be another headache to me. but at least i just realised how much my group rocks. haha. yes joseph goh my group rocks my socks cause we have managed to get everything done so far while still having fun. though a few snapping here n there.

oh n and how can i forget mother tongue. the joy man. hahahahahha. manbeast vs ryan. the final showdown is arriving. hey im not so arrogant to say im gonna win cause i may fail my malay but so far so good ive been dodging all bullets. macam matrix sia. haha. saya fikir kan, saya akan ikut iqbal punya kata.... " hantam sajelah".

yes... a bit of malay for the noobs out there. im feelin a bit nuts suddenly. there is this lag period from playin o2jam just now. it was damn funny cause i turned my speaker to a very low volume and was just hittin keys. n those drum songs had a better beat when i hit the keys on the keyboard. so basically i was listenin to me hit the keys. haha

oh yeah a few shoutouts that i have not mentioned:

momo: your mehmeh wishes you the best of luck in your alevels.

hygin and eugene: thank you for the help durin the promos.

joseph goh: yo bro thanks for the promo period and makin it enjoyable with your nonsense.

joanne and chang yong: accompanyin me while i studied through the night.

mr bala: for staying black with me. lol (dunno why also)

iqbal: kau punya rambut akan jatuh ke lantai. hahaha

yahui: msging me at the most appropraite times (haha joe)

yesh that be abt it.
to joe: its like one last cigarette for you. you just find it hard to let go. LOL. n i win nescafe.

it has come whereby i know i gotta talk to you before the results come out. why? cause its simple. i want the day of our results to not be the day we actually think abt factors that dont pertain to the results itself. we got the time now. we have no brick wall to hide behind. our results are just the final factor.

scared? thought so... so am i. lol. there is so much more i wanna express to you but cant cause nothing has happened yet. no joseph im not some noob in treatin a girl properly. i just cant for now, not till anything has happened. and if it doesnt.. oh well. put a plaster and stagger on.
to hold you in my arms, to let you know how much i care.
and if you are reading this, n have no clue what im talkin abt. its ok. i too am high n no clue what im talkin. wait im always high. but for now not really cause im seated down on a chair.

haha. strawberry shortcake arrived at my house. oh yeah. point to note. my DOG has a girlfriend. like wth. the one person in this household that knows all abt what im gg through ( yes i talk to my dog ) has gone a found himself some bitch from the block. hahaha. lol.

well tmr be some boring day unless i go out in the evening. not too sure of what plans i got but hey i am living by the day yes? lol.

Angelus blogged at 8:18 PM

My 100th post reserved none other than for the end of promos. hahahah


yes my friends the time has finally come. kick back n relax and watch the night sky cause promos are finally over. who cares abt the results. ill worry abt them another time.

after the exam i went back to slepp and et ready to meet the joanne, joseph and yahui at bugis. i wasnt late though scolded most of the time. haha whats new eh?

then had pastamania for dinner and then went to shisha at salmars. joe took mixed fruit while i took cappucino. payed random game n talked a lot of rubbish. finally went it was time to leave, me n yahui said goodbye to jo n joe while we headed off to take 851. unfortunaltely we took the bus the wrong way so much that we ended up at tiong bahru. like wts? then had to take another bus back to her place. haha. by the time it was abt 1145. said goodbye and took a bus back home.

fullfillin n accomplished. more to come. the one last exam.

Angelus blogged at 12:40 AM

Angelus blogged at 10:34 PM

its three o clock in the morning on the second of october 2007. i have gone three consecutive days without sleep. im gonna die oh so badly for my chem. what the hell. ItS DoNe alr man. so i cant be bothered. now im here studyin for bio promo. need to pass. so far score goes...


Ryan vs Bio Promo---> 2:1 ( half time report)

haha take that you oncogene.
paper is in 5hrs time. lets see how it goes eh?
it draws close.

Angelus blogged at 3:14 AM