Sunday, December 30, 2007
im back from the wedding. ive got a lot to talk abt but hey.. im lazy! so i shall do it nother time
but for now. here are some pics: only half of what im yet to upload.
Angelus blogged at 11:27 PM
Sunday, December 23, 2007
my perfect weekend this year.
hello my fellow readers. my last post talked abt nostalgic crap n how im yet to meet up with those i have yet to see in a loong while. well that has changed. yes it has all changed!!!
1) 433 class gathering on the 21st. an awesome gathering cause i got to catch up with the class. really nice people. some havent changed. gossiped a lot. haha so fun. n that night progressed to awesome stuff as well. no regrets (:
2) i got to eat at hogs breath with yahui after us working there for soooo long.
3) thought i didnt really go out ytd it felt like i finally accomplished loads. a whole year of bottling been released. it was simply a day to remember.
4) went for mass today n caught up with anna. haha nice getting to talk to her also.
see... what a nice weekend. not to mention that im actually really really happy after so long. christmas is in two days. so fun. plus all the gifts ive gotten. haha cant wait to give them out.
on our not so happy note. im leaving on the 26th for the wedding. all this while i had nothing holding me back from wanting to go. in fact i was kinda looking forward to taking a break from the stress of singapore. BUT NOW... haha no way. i wish i didnt have to go cause home is still better. but oh well i guess ill make the most of it.
i regret nothing but not making this sooner
Angelus blogged at 8:06 PM
Thursday, December 20, 2007
the wind is blowing damn strong outside.
i dont know what im feeling. its the feeling you get when you know that the holidays are drawing a close and you know that you havent even done half the things you would have liked to do. its the feeling where im stuck at home doing work which i never thought id have to do again.
thats a sucky feeling cause i havent really gotten the chance to catch up with those that i really miss. the only thus far has been rachel. had lunch with her yesterday. well sorta lunch, she hasnt changed much from that time till now. im yet to meet anna or randall. strangely im yet to go out shopping with yahui eventhough we have been working for the past few weeks. working just doesnt count as spending a nice christmas holiday with friends. cause its always on our feet. never something to let loose and enjoy the moment. think the last time was on the 20th. haha. so yeah the sucky feeling that school is about to start and i havent spent time with those i really wanted to catch up with. aiya there is no need to say for eugene n hygin cause those two are always available so we do catch up. but the other ppl have somehow disappeared.
hopefully will get the opportunity to go out tonight. whereas for anna, if you are reading this let me know if you want to go for mass together on sunday n then hang out. yupp.
oh wait my phone is ringing.. n its a msg from iqbal. haha that be another papaya who at least i had the time to spend with during the hols. drinking starbucks and talkin rubbish.
but yet it doesnt feel complete. i m looking forward to seeing the 433 ppl tmr. yeah i suppose the realisation of a crappy year next year is beginnin to set in. i wish things went back to where it were when we were preparing for Olevels. i had ppl motivating me to study. i had a lot of fun in the process. n i actually enjoyed studyin with them. them referring to my class plus anna n rachel n nat.
my gosh nostalgic eh? oh well lets see what my plans are for tonight. as of now its uncertain cause i havent gotten a reply on dinner plans. oh well...
Angelus blogged at 12:31 PM
haha banana monkey!
ok.. im a bit too lazy to finish this post that i had in mind. anti climax ah? tmr la
Angelus blogged at 12:10 AM
Monday, December 17, 2007
hello blog. im sooooo exhausted from things right now. haha. finally had my last day at work last night. was actually dying from tired legs last night. soooo lets have a rewind on things yeah?
k i woke up on sat morning for a run. i need to keep training cause i honestly feel im really slow as compared to what i can run. damn those knees of mine. anyways after my run, i went to work. work was rather tiring and all but kinda fun cause there were new people there. n jenny was coaching them so the floor was managed by me n yahui.
pretty cool cause she actually did teach me how to do cash bills. we went to fish n co for lunch break. after that we went back to work. woah that night was sooo slack n raymond wasnt in a good mood. so i was stationed at weird places la. then finally a reservation came so i had at least something to do. though those people were asses la. damn bitchy twin girls.
once we ended we headed back home. i walked yahui to the her house before getting a call to go for supper. so i had supper at bukit timah before taking a walk home. was shit tired from everything.
next morning i woke up for mass before going for work again. seemed to be my last day at work so i went in and set up as much as i can. felt good having learnt a lot from the place. then the day progressed n i wore pinky again n paraded around city hall. haha. then we went to raffles city market place for lunch break. queued for nice doughnuts n had subway. wen back n gave those working there the doughnuts we bought.
then the night started and things began to get real hectic once the match began. haha was actually thinkin to myself how thankful i was that i was only ending at ten cause my legs were going crazy. they were near the brinsk of giving way. haha then yahui came up with her brilliant sentimental nostalgic papayas n suggested we do till closing. then in my head i was going noooooo but of course i was like ok la.
OH! i just remebered what happened last night. i didnt get the chance to tell anyone due to how busy evryone was.
i was closing up pig pen room in the dark and actually asked yahui to help me if she was not too busy. so while clearing everything i had half expected yahui to walk in once she was done. mind you the place was dark n the doors were close to shut. then while placing the chairs on the tables.. someone breathed into my ear. n i turned around half expecting to scold yahui for giving me the creeps. but she wasnt there. then i cursed under my breath. after a few more chairs someone like sorta placed their hand on my left shoulder that was aching. n i turned around like once again abt to scold yahui for tryin to scare the shit out of me. but no one was there. then i was like nabeh this aint good at all. n the door was at the other end of the room. then i looked around the room trying to find out who the fuck was there. haha thoughts soon filled my mind cause of where i stood. i was standing at the end of the long centre table furthest away from the door. the very centre where the nun hung. so i quickened my pace of putting the chairs on the table with my heart racing. then as soon as i placed the last chair on the table i headed to theoor. just before stepping out someone blew into my left ear again. then i kinda shouted fuck as i opened the door. only to see zhi bin just stare at me. freaky eh???
yeah so after that i was pretty dazed from shock n went to the veranda to help yahui as instructed by zhi bin. then ben told me to clear the outdoors. so yeah everything went back to normal. once we finaly closed the place, me n yahui called a cab n headed back home. the incident completely was forgotten till i was blogging abt it. yeah i dropped her off n then headed home. i fell asleep in the cab from the exhaustion. knocked out as soon as i reached home n saw the score.
woke up this morning to train at sji before heading home once again. knocked out all the way till i woke up to start on my paperwork that i got to get done. haiz. was suppose to go shopping today with yahui at night since it looked like my only free day this week. but she has loads to do n she was too tired so i guess thats canceled.
hmm christmas is coming.... i got loads of gift to get. beginning if i can get for the whole class already. not that i dont have the cash. but rather i dont know what to get n no time. so im gonna give all those that im close to n anything i happen to come across.
anyone that accesses my laptop will actually have privellege to see what im getting people for christmas. muahahahah. sadly only i use my laptop. alright.. i shall blog later if i have the time n mood n papayas.
i thought of something selfish just now. haha sigh. damn human nature.
Angelus blogged at 4:55 PM
Friday, December 14, 2007
give me another reason to believe ive not once again let history repeat itself.
Angelus blogged at 5:28 PM
i just wanna say im sorry to both of you for the two different mistakes i made.
to one... im sorry that i was never direct in my approach n i do hope that you learn to trust once again. things need to be mended so lets hope we can start anew.
to the other... im sorry for the ass i have been and making you sound useless when you have been awesome. i dont know what you think of me anymore cause you never seemed to respond to my attempts to talk abt it after last night. so i assume you arent angry but given up. thats sad but i guess there isnt anything else i can do. just hoping you say something soon abt it. cause its driving me nuts with your ignoring attitude you adopted.
Angelus blogged at 1:09 AM
Monday, December 10, 2007
sigh. of all times to feel that way. hello blog. i suppose im gonna fight this myself yes? i cant bring myelf to drag anyone else into it. so why do i fight? cause i know its better that i fight this with her. she will never learn. i dont want to see her hurt in life somewhere down the road. she needs to learn. n once again i got to be the one that does it. no one, not even she, would see what i do. unless of course i explain n invite them in fightin this battle against her. but i cant bring myself to ask anyone else to do this with me.
its hard cause of all the victims, im the worse one. n yet i got to do this for her. urgh. sometimes i hate reasonin n compassion. my last act of kindness? thats what ill tell them. but hidden.... its only the beginning. sigh
what i heard today really touched a nerve in me but hey.. when has that mattered.
Angelus blogged at 9:34 PM
Sunday, December 9, 2007
im so exhausted but yet just wanna blog before i turn in.
its like a disgrace or something bad. i wouldnt expect you to understand since superiority always favoured the majority. n its not like i want you to know what i really think cause then you would shut up for some reason. thinkin thats a better way to solve it. keep me hidden from what i already know exist.
the hurt is still there and well, it hurts even more to know that you had nothing comforting to say to me in return. makes me wonder if you actually did agree with tat statement. oh wait, u did. i wonder why u even talk to me sometimes. are you talking n mixing around with me cause im scary in the sense that i could turn against you? thats why u force yourself to talk n mingle? so if i was some nobody you probably would not have bothered. im a disgrace indeed. the top priority on why its so hard for you to just swallow what people say sometimes.
sigh... if u only knew how it felt. then again i dont know if you actually do care abt how i feel. cause if u did, you would have still told me but yet reassured me somehow that you disagree with the opinions of theirs. yet the impression i read from you was that it was something i had to accept. i had to accept that you find me an embarassment . sigh i didnt want to sy this jst now cause knowing you, you are going to get angry wih me n next time u wouldnt want to tell me.
but i guess the blog is a good place to say everything one shot n let u react from there. i just hope u dont resort to hiding anythin from me from now on. cause then that would mean u really dont trust me at all anymore.
haha dont be crazy.. how on earth can i be close to anyone of such nature.~ u really think so?
Angelus blogged at 1:59 AM
Friday, December 7, 2007
im not emo. im just once again simply disappointed that u let me down. dont even know why sometimes you do what you do. n if i start tellin u what i feel abt what you are doing then you will only get emo or maybe (highly likely) get angry with me.
so im done trying to tell you cause you dont want to change it. you yourself said so. where you are comfortable in why bother changing. so what if it troubles others. yeah so thats why im not emo or even pissed off with you. simple disappointed cause i know you had that chance to simply inform me. i dont know what else to say.
to another friend on the other hand... dude chill alright. you need to let go. n you yourself told me u never wanted to in the first place. so yeah abt time u did. as for me.. ill implode if i have to before saying how i really feel of the situation. nothin expresses my anger inside for it.
oh yeah yahui if you read this... you are working tmr 11-CL n sunday 11-10.
Angelus blogged at 7:45 PM
Wednesday, December 5, 2007
hello blog~
Wherever you go
Whatever you do
I will be right here waiting for you
Whatever it takes
Or how my heart breaks
I will be right here waiting for you
nice song i so happen to be listening to at the moment. well i had two days off and its back to work in a few hours time. sigh. christmas is coming and im yet to go and get the presents i wanted to get for those close to me.
im right now so bored i actually cleaned my entire room and sorted out my books. woot! well its raining outside so my knees are hurting but the day is all the more gloomy cause half of my class that i actually talk to have gone somewhere in the world. maybe zimbabwe. hahaha. the plan has been set and you know what? i feel scared for you. lol
to my bro.. im sorry for what i said ytd to you. or rather you had to hear it like this. but i think if you look at it carefully and think for a moment.. at least you can see who actually is willing to stand up for you and who isnt. that what should matter most. esp if your situation is as such that you are in love with her still and she thinks that way of you.
anyways im going for lunch now. gettin a bit hungry. haha. then got to get ready for work again.
Angelus blogged at 1:00 PM
Tuesday, December 4, 2007
the week has been a bit easier. yet still tiring. on sat i went down to work as per normal n it was shit busy all of a sudden. really a curse when we are short of staff. but i left early to go for a function.
the next day again went to work in the morning all the way to night. saw the roster and was glad that i had the tuesday off. was really tired and kept loosing my cool that night. especially since it was busy. sigh... phone died n didnt get the message abt trainin till like midnight again. everyone around me decided to complain to me. all swines.
the next morning woke up early to go for a run with the hockey people n had to leave after the run. met up with rosheni for lunch for fun. after lunch i went to meet up with eugene n hygin at starbucks n we talked abt our lives till 8 in the night. yeah i couldnt believe how outdated they were. felt so good venting everything at each other. all the bottled shit realeased n then we strategised on what to do.
went back online after that n only to get angry with someone. thanks a lot la. my faith in you as a friend just dropped n i know that you wouldnt bother trying to mend things. why cause u are i wasnt that big of a deal to begin with eh? hahaha nvm im done trying to please the world. at least for now la.
today i woke up n had to go for a match against ajc. i was already set to tell them that i was leaving after the match but a few events left me wanting to just stay. cause i proved it to them n to myself by playing an awesome game. i manage to string most of my passes accurately. n to top things all off... i scored the one n only goal in that match. eat that shit!
tmr is gonna be another sian day at work. although its special. its where yusof ishak n i become friendly. haha.
alright enough india's bullshit for now. i know that got a lot to spare but hey.
Angelus blogged at 9:21 PM
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