Thursday, November 12, 2009
scared.
lost. clueless. scared.
this blog is turning a lil emo.
urgh.... what the fuck do i have to do to know for sure. i rather know now. the anxiety is killing me.
Angelus blogged at 3:40 PM
Saturday, November 7, 2009
as of now.....
one month, 12 days.
one month and tweleve days left in OCS. seems like a short time but a lot can happen. lets hope nothing does happen.
an update on the love scene. stagnant as always. im not sure whether there will be anything left after this one month 12 days. i really dont. cause ill know in two weeks whether ive made it. whether im worthy of commissioning. cause after two weeks there is nothing other than discipline and integrity that they will kick you out for. so till then. i got my work cut out for me. to stay in the course. im going to commission silently. no big scene on that day.
why?
cause its taken out a lot from me already. too many personal sacrifices on my part in my opinion. lost myself these past two years. i was better in j1. i was fun i had life. i had youth. i w ant it back.
time to change things.
Angelus blogged at 9:28 AM
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