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Poppin bottles in the ice, like a blizzard
When we drink we do it right gettin slizzard
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Now I’m feelin so fly like a G6
Like a G6, Like a G6
Now I’m feelin so fly like a G6

5th COMPANY OWNS!!!

I have officially legacied! yes thats a new word. 5th Company. the newest company in BMTC is now known to be THE best company in BMTC.

Many generations will come and go. Many more will enlist. Many more will be privileged to train those in 5th Company. And let it be known to the many, that I was the pioneer 2nd in Command (2IC) of said company.

When people talk and mention the 2IC that trained them the hardest, that set the benchmark for other companies to follow and that kicked ass so hard, let it be known that it was me. I dedicate this also to my kickass OC.

I feel proud to know that I have left big shoes to fill.To all those upcoming 2IC of 5th Company. Remember that the only easy day was really yesterday. Woots!

peace out

Angelus blogged at 3:48 PM

you know i know how...
to make em stop and stare as i zone out.

finally the freedom of being a civilian is within my grasp. the smell of a pink IC is looming. but i must say I'm gonna miss my army life with 5th company. its been great. and I'm starting to write a list of things i gotta do before university starts.

and its nice to finally see all my friends again. it has been great catching up. this is the break after A levels i missed out on. hahaha oh well.. what done can't be changed. lets move forward.




here is a short story:

there was a boy. this boy lived his whole life trying to find his purpose in the world. he soon believe that his purpose was to be there for others. but all that changed when constantly, the others kept letting him down. he faced much disappointment whenever he put his faith in relying on others just like how he let other rely on him.

but then something weird happened one day. he met this other person. mesmerized by the personality he became close friends with this person. same sequence of events followed. he was there whenever this person needed him. and then strangest thing happened. he found out that he could rely on this person too. it was amazing.and this became his purpose.

and though there has been fights and arguments, the boy knew one thing. on top of great looks and personality, this person whom he could rely on whenever he was down in the dumps was not worth letting go. and the more time passed by, the more the boy knew that god sent an angel down for him.

it didn't matter that the two were very different in terms of habits and likes. it didn't matter if the two had lived different lifestyles. compatibility wasn't about how much they were alike.. but rather how happy they made each other feel.

till this day, despite the person knowing the good, bad, ugly and the sexy of this boy, their friendship has not broken. for the person was perfect with all the imperfections. the person was sweet through all of life's sour moments. the person was there when no one else seemed to be around.

the boy knew. that the girl whom he sat next to in J.C. was the person whom his heart could never let go.

the end.

Angelus blogged at 1:03 PM

im still alive but im barely breathing,
just prayed to a god that i dont believe in.
while i got time, you got freedom
cause when a heart breaks no it dont breakeven...

what am i suppose to do when the best part of me was always you.
what am i suppose to say when im choked up and you are ok.
im falling to pieces...



for all the time that we went through, its amazing how you have finally lost/ gave up hope on us. 2.5yrs of sweetness (well so i was to me) was enough to keep me going. knowing i would find no one better out there, i never wanted to let you go. yes in those tough times and those stupid mistakes it seemed like i wanted out. but never once did i ever seriously consider it.

but you,
you have given up. and im walking away.
if im your sunshine,
if im there to make you smile,
if im there to make you laugh,
if im there when times are tough,
if im there when you feeling scared,
if im there when you are feeling alone,
if im there when you are lost,
if i look after you like no one else can,
if i am the best and there is no one else better out there for you,
if i am everything you love in a guy....

then whats there to think about? whats there to know? after 2.5yrs you have lost sight of what your are fighting for. if this was a 6month relationship, i'd understand. but its not. its a 2.5yrs relationship. how can you say you dont know if you would simply be getting used to me? does that mean that all this while, you were simply just getting used to me? that this 2.5yrs relationship was a lie? that you were not exactly happy or wake up happy? that you simply just adapted for the sake of it?

cause it wasnt like that for me. it was the happiest times in my life. and thru the mistakes/fights/ troubles we faced.. all the happy moments were always worth fighting for. its only been less than 2months. whats that compared to my 30 months. or compared to a lifetime of more.

well whats done is done. its all over and all i can have now is memories of that magical relationship we had.

thank you.
always love you.

ryan

Angelus blogged at 2:51 PM

new batch! fresh meat!

in approx 48hrs, fresh meat will enter. ah cant wait.. the feeling of the last batch before my granted freedom.

it honestly feels like the two years didnt happen. felt like it was only a couple of months perhaps that i was doing my alevels and just enlisted. but it has been TWO YEARS!

this next 5months are simply gonna be the best for me. im going to make this batch rock my socks and give it my best. i tend to want to end each stage of my life with a BANG.

it seems appropriate to thanks and give testimony to a couple of people along the way these past two years. funny how only some may ever see this.
in no particular order of preference, here goes.

rosheni: thank you so much for putting up with my nonsense/anger/depression for the past 3yrs. honestly the army would have been a terrible experience if i didnt have you in it. still can remember the day i enlisted, how painful it was to have to not be with you. n your journal that kept me going! and during OCS when you visited and spend the many weekends just watching me sleep and complain. making my 19th birthday so freaking awesome and attending all my social events.in fact.. you hae done so much in the past two years! even when im BMT as a PC/2IC. you gave me a house to crash every day. the food in your house.. woaH! well i do hope you will be there in the next 20yrs as i embark in a whole new stage in my life. i promise ill be there no matter what happens from now on in our friendship.

hygin: this one is a tough one. where to begin sia. you have been there in everything possible. any up or down you are there. i could have thought of no better best friends to have than you and eugene. you never fail to check up on how i was. and i am honestly very happy for your uni place in UCL. i might have been a bit sour to not have you around but i stand corrected. iys not like you itll make a major difference in our friendship seeing that we have always been the sort to keep in contact thru texting and msn. just hope the distance doesnt make me "forget how to talk to you". hahahahha..inside joke

eugene: bro you too have been there nearly every step of the way. though you are busy with your shit and all, you always remember to keep in contact. you always have the best and most rational advice to give. sometimes the advice that i just dont wanna hear but its for my owwn good. thanks for running parallel with me in terms or army experiences. i will always look up to someone like you, the fighting spirit to push on in life and not be held back by whatever shit happens.

iqbal and josep goh: you two have been the most recent addition to the society of "wtf bros". always doing the craziest things and talkin abt the most random of things everytime i meet up with any one of you guys. its a pity that JC was only two years. for joe, we gonna rock the FOS in NUS at make them go OMG WTF. LOL. for iqbal there will always be a time to fuckacina in every stressful situation in life.

bernice: you have no idea girl, but thanks for that day. it really helped me sort out my priorities in life. back to church is the next mission in life.

yahui: hey girl, thank you so much for meeting up with me every chance we could the past couple of months. it has been a joy reliving the moments where we were in school was such a waste that we grew apart for quite sometime. well im not letting that happen again. hope this friendship grows. i can safely say that i know you better than 90% of the people in your life. so you can always turn to me whenever in doubt or facing problems. just like how i turned to you. thanks for intorducing me to places in singapore that many people dont know about. its like our life can be telecasted in makansutra. hahahah

rachel: yes i got to give testimony to you.you reminded me of what person i can be. not the bastard but the one that is always there for his friends. made me realise all the people around me that would be there for me when shit hit the fence. so yeah, till someday somehow we are friends again. ill alaways be there when you need me.

khairi and aaron: thanks bro. ORD party soon k! you two were the only two that could ALWAYS make me laugh in OCS.great navigation team in JCC/wildcat/hunter.Cant wait for the two of you to come back from roving.

lindy: i miss you eh! you were there for me when me n ros broke up.eventhough you were many miles away.

sheni n preet: this is someone who deserves so much recognition for all her efforts in helping me expose the bastard that was dating ros. i give her two thumbs up for sister support when she looked out for ros ervery single time i asked her too, when i couldnt. and not to mention.. hang out to play games/club and drink every single random time.

well the list goes on.. but for now, this is it.

off to eat dinner!! nigga pls!

Angelus blogged at 4:56 PM

Angelus blogged at 3:42 PM

please forgive me, i cant stop loving you.

Angelus blogged at 11:44 PM

if murder was legal, i would have killed by now.

Angelus blogged at 12:04 PM